Fair warning, this post is going to be all over the place.
I just came back from one of my
favorite vacations ever. (Hence the HUGE blogging break I accidentally took.) And yeah, it was only to North Carolina. I say "only" because a lot of people might not see that as a big deal, but to me, it's kinda everything.
So let's first answer the question everyone has been asking:
"If you love North Carolina so much, why did you move to Ohio?"
That's simple,
I love my family. It's been great being around them for the holidays, and spending time closer to them. I've loved helping our church grow and learning through the experiences.
Even more though, I needed to get out of my situation in North Carolina to step back and set my priorities straight. In Charlotte, I was working 6-7
long days a week, living in a very odd situation, and mentally/emotionally depleted every single day.
I can easily say that God brought me to Ohio for a specific purpose.
Second question I've been getting a lot of lately:
"So you'd be going/coming back already?"
I have not committed at all to spending a long period of time in North Carolina. Yes, I've applied for an internship/job that could change my entire life and quite literally is my dream job. Yes, I know for a fact it's what
God is calling me towards. No matter when or how it happens, it IS going to happen. There is such a strong pull in my heart towards this church. It's what inspired me into my field, and is easily something I could see myself doing forever and ever. But if I don't get the job, I could see myself staying in Ohio for awhile. I think that's part of
what makes this job such a calling instead of a "career." There's pretty much nothing I wouldn't be willing to do to follow God's heart for my life.
Now you're probably wondering,
"What is this dream job?"
Here's where we're going to get a little emotional. I think I said it pretty well in this Facebook post yesterday:
This was immediately after I left the service, and I honestly just cried and cried such happy tears. I knew His presence was right with me in that moment, telling me "Pursue this."
Maybe just to expand a little bit, I should add that this is the first church I ever chose for my own. I grew up in churches my parents picked, which have always been phenomenal in their own way, but there is just something about Elevation Church that I cannot shake. The atmosphere is so loving and caring and giving and compassionate and accepting and I could literally go on forever.
Last question you didn't ask:
"Why is she telling us all of this?"
I honestly don't know. I haven't even been accepted to the internship. Who knows if I actually will be? Maybe just to ask for your prayers and love. Partially just to get all my feelings spoken and heard.
And lastly, as I was leaving Elevation yesterday, I had
this song on repeat over and over, and I simply had to share it. A 7 hour car ride can do that to you.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings.